Blogging is hard
January 8, 2009 – 8:07 PM | by Michael JohnsonI am terrible about writing regularly. To be honest I suffer from self-confidence in regards to if anyone actually wants to read what I have to say. And then of course it’s finding the time to actually sit down and write a coherent and intelligent piece that I would feel comfortable publishing. And with my limited time and energy lately, I seem doomed to fail at blogging.
My addiction is apparently buying domain names and playing with content management systems. Not so much with actually producing great content for these websites I start. I’ve never really been one to start New Years Resolutions. But timing seemed to have coincided with the New Year and my urge to change. I’m attempting to spend sometime writing each night on a different website.
Tonight is Useless Nexus’ turn. On Friday I hope to do some work on Central Square’s website. Sunday’s I hpe to post something to Maine Militia. On Monday I’ll write about my family. On Tuesday I’ll work on my online portfolio. And Wednesday I will put some effort into Tech Scamps. Actually, I hope Tech Scamps will become easy and I can put up some material more often over there. But I guess only time will tell.
The obstacles to succcess seem daunting. I haven’t written or talked about this but since last July I have not been feeling well. I had a cold last July and it seems like I never really fully recovered from that. I’ve seen my family doctor, been through the blood tests, has seen a specialist in pulmonology, conducted a sleep study on myself, and spent some time thinking about where my brain has gone. The sleep study reveals that I have a a mild case of sleep apnea. I’ve been given some options but have not choosen a course yet.
I’m definately not sleeping well. I’m definately finding stress at work and home as my mind seems to become less useful and more of a burden. I’m not sure if depression is a cause or a result of everything else. But I’m settling into a funk that is weighing me down.
I’m having a difficult time concentrating and focusing my mind and energy on any task. For those that have known me for a long time will understand how much this bothers me. I like being smart. I’m not feeling so intelligent these days.
So I succeeded in blogging here tonight. Let’s see how the rest of my New Year’s Resolution of blogging goes! Oh and I intend to lose 30 pounds in wieght this year too.
Tags: About Michael, blogging, confidence, diet, New Year's Resolution
2 Responses to “Blogging is hard”
By Jackie on Jan 8, 2009 | Reply
Aww, sorry to hear you’re not feeling well Michael. As a long term sufferer of depression I can sympathise with how you’re feeling. A disturbed sleep pattern has been with me for years, though it’s improved slightly recently (probably because a ton of stress has lifted). Lack of sleep = pure torture.
On the posting/confidence subject, I understand that completely. I think every blogger goes through that periodically. I think it helps, on a personal blog at least, to write because you enjoy the writing process and not necessarily to please any potential readers. I’ve also been an absent blogger for a long time but lately have gotten some enthusiasm for it back.
Hope you feel better soon!
By Tara on Jan 8, 2009 | Reply
I’m so sorry to hear about the “illness” that just doesn’t want to go away. Those are never fun and they certainly drain a person way too much. I hope that you receive much needed answers soon and that you will be finally able to feel more like yourself again too!